Jolt
Last night was quite something. I know I am frustrated, just absolutely perplexed with how He's working. So many stops, so many barricades faced, when will a through road come into full view? Lord, where are You? Show Yourself please. I don't know how long I have to wait. It's been nearly 6 months since I first prayed about it, what more need I do?
Why this entire roundabout? Why bring me through so much of this? I am caught between taking up a position of quiet waiting and just well, ranting.
I know how easy it is for me to tell myself and accept the former. I am sure You know my capacity to do any of the above. But right now I am vacillating, with this urge to lurch into the latter.
To say I am satisfied and happy is a lie. There are many other things which bring me joy, no doubt, but there is a hole which gapes wide open which each passing day. Father I don't want to languish here anymore. I need some answer from You.
Lord something has to come through. Where are You?
Why this entire roundabout? Why bring me through so much of this? I am caught between taking up a position of quiet waiting and just well, ranting.
I know how easy it is for me to tell myself and accept the former. I am sure You know my capacity to do any of the above. But right now I am vacillating, with this urge to lurch into the latter.
To say I am satisfied and happy is a lie. There are many other things which bring me joy, no doubt, but there is a hole which gapes wide open which each passing day. Father I don't want to languish here anymore. I need some answer from You.
Lord something has to come through. Where are You?
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