vocation
Lux is resisting. I procrastinate. I know I ought to fast to receive a clearer picture of where I am headed toward post-graduation. Yet somehow I put it off, day after day, saying I'll get down to it once I am done with this essay. And the essay plods along because I am experiencing a semester-long bout of academic fatigue. I attribute it to a general disinterest in all four subjects I am taking and a growing awareness that, hey is this going to be of any tangible use in the future?
Not that I hate Arts, please do not get me wrong, I love it and I have breathed it for more than half a decade already. And I still intend to pursue something related, give or take the form it comes in.
So where am I headed? Why do I resist/procrastinate? What do I want? I do not know. The lethargy is getting to me. My emotions are jumbled up and my mind is in a whirl. I want time out from assignments and all. I just want to spend time alone with Him. People, commitments, situations notwithstanding.
Have I heard Him speak? Have I heard my heart speak?
Not that I hate Arts, please do not get me wrong, I love it and I have breathed it for more than half a decade already. And I still intend to pursue something related, give or take the form it comes in.
So where am I headed? Why do I resist/procrastinate? What do I want? I do not know. The lethargy is getting to me. My emotions are jumbled up and my mind is in a whirl. I want time out from assignments and all. I just want to spend time alone with Him. People, commitments, situations notwithstanding.
Have I heard Him speak? Have I heard my heart speak?
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