Isaiah 22:11
but you did not look to the One who made it,
or have regard for the One who planned it long ago.
Everything He has purposed for me is to bless and propser. So why am I, in so many areas of my life, looking to improve the situation in ways I was used to, and attempting to understand human emotions and condition through patterns of thought I have been accustomed to? When I know that there is One who oversees all and whose wisdom supercedes anything I claim to know?
There is this reluctance in me to stop the cycle of thinking*
*when Lux was younger, her thought processes were fine products of the world and its system of education. the more knowledge she acquired the more cynical she grew. the more questions she asked the more she realised no one had adequate, or even satisfactory, answers to them.
and I realised that the patterns of thought I am once more immersing myself into were undeniably insular and self-consumed. Easily I have settled down into the comfortable life I'm used to in Singapore and to an extent also found myself settling back into the questionable 'comforts' of the way I reasoned out life and relationships.
Thoughts are not bad but when I leave out Christ in my life as a Christian, where does that leave me? An -ian waiting for a noun to fill up the space left by the hyphen? What have I been orienting my life toward? Even when I profess being Christian, and blessedly so; have I forgotten His grace and love and providence?
Father I cry out to You! I need help with my thoughts and the way I try to handle my life. There is a gap which cannot be replaced by anything else. Teach me how to lead a life that's full of You. I am sorry that in the busy-ness of life, throughout all the wrestling with relationships and emotions and thoughts I have put You aside. Here I am trying to wrestle with the heaviness of living and forgotten how You Lord have saved me and will bear the burdens for me.
I want to live a life in line with Your plans and desires for me, a life rich with a heart knowledge of who You are in me. Let me not pray prayers which are empty of heart but rather prayers overflowing with You, Lord Jesus. I want to look to You, to see You, to rest in You. I pray for the strength to step out in faith, out of the processes and conditions I have grown used to over the years and into a garden filled with peace and hope.
Only You know what lies inside of me. I pray for humbleness and obedience in the name of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ.
Amen.
but you did not look to the One who made it,
or have regard for the One who planned it long ago.
Everything He has purposed for me is to bless and propser. So why am I, in so many areas of my life, looking to improve the situation in ways I was used to, and attempting to understand human emotions and condition through patterns of thought I have been accustomed to? When I know that there is One who oversees all and whose wisdom supercedes anything I claim to know?
There is this reluctance in me to stop the cycle of thinking*
*when Lux was younger, her thought processes were fine products of the world and its system of education. the more knowledge she acquired the more cynical she grew. the more questions she asked the more she realised no one had adequate, or even satisfactory, answers to them.
and I realised that the patterns of thought I am once more immersing myself into were undeniably insular and self-consumed. Easily I have settled down into the comfortable life I'm used to in Singapore and to an extent also found myself settling back into the questionable 'comforts' of the way I reasoned out life and relationships.
Thoughts are not bad but when I leave out Christ in my life as a Christian, where does that leave me? An -ian waiting for a noun to fill up the space left by the hyphen? What have I been orienting my life toward? Even when I profess being Christian, and blessedly so; have I forgotten His grace and love and providence?
Father I cry out to You! I need help with my thoughts and the way I try to handle my life. There is a gap which cannot be replaced by anything else. Teach me how to lead a life that's full of You. I am sorry that in the busy-ness of life, throughout all the wrestling with relationships and emotions and thoughts I have put You aside. Here I am trying to wrestle with the heaviness of living and forgotten how You Lord have saved me and will bear the burdens for me.
I want to live a life in line with Your plans and desires for me, a life rich with a heart knowledge of who You are in me. Let me not pray prayers which are empty of heart but rather prayers overflowing with You, Lord Jesus. I want to look to You, to see You, to rest in You. I pray for the strength to step out in faith, out of the processes and conditions I have grown used to over the years and into a garden filled with peace and hope.
Only You know what lies inside of me. I pray for humbleness and obedience in the name of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ.
Amen.
indeed, He planned to bless us long ago =) take heart, dear, it is God Himself who helps us trust in His grace and goodness! there is no longer reproach, because Christ has taken everything upon Himself...even our faithlessness.